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Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Worries about School/Life

Article that Airon e-mailed me

Excerpt:

"Adair, who is 30, found herself mired in a Quarterlife Crisis and sought professional help. She says, “I worked with a life coach, and he helped me a lot to realize that I was creating a vicious cycle in my life.... It was a cycle with four different phases, and I’ve followed it basically throughout my life. The steps were: I would get really excited about something, something new something different, something stellar, big. I went off to school totally excited and ready for an awesome experience. Stage two would be like ‘Oh, this is it? This is kind of boring now.’ After one-and-a-half exciting and non-stop years, I realized that I wasn’t excited about being there anymore. Stage three would be ‘What am I doing, why am I choosing to do this?’ In that third stage I would inevitably have some type of breakdown, [which] usually consisted of crying and talking through the feelings of emptiness and boredom with a friend or family member. Then I would have kind of breakthrough in that experience and get myself back up. At that point, I went abroad to Seville, Spain.... Now every time I’m faced with a change or new situation or find myself bored, I ask myself if this is a part of the cycle, or is this genuinely how I’m feeling.”

 

Will this happen to me when/if I go to graduate school? At first I was really excited about advising, but now after months of studying and thinking about the potential lack of job openings, my head has been filled with worries and doubts, and I have grown less enthusiastic about it. In fact, I fear it.

 

When/If I enter graduate school, I’m sure I won’t always be super enthusiastic. I’ll probably grow more concerned about getting to class on time, finding parking and getting around campus, and day-to-day things like that. I’ll probably get bored with classes and stressed with studying. Exams and papers will grow increasingly difficult, and I’ll wonder, “Why am I doing this?”


How do I stay motivated? What should I do if I don't get into graduate school? What happens if I spend all this money, time, and effort to get a Master's degree, but there are no jobs available? UT Austin is laying off staff this year...and advisers typically stay at their jobs for a very long time so maybe when I graduate there won't be any vacant positions. Even if the economy picks up sometime next year, I firmly believe that it won't make a full recovery for another few years, and I don't believe there will be any growth. Most companies and public institutions have downsized this year and the year before, and I think they will probably remain at this smaller size. End of recession does NOT equal recovery; actual recovery estimates are grim at best.


Worries worries worries...

 


Saturday, September 19, 2009

F.I.R. - Yue Ya Wan (月牙灣) ("Moon Crescent Bay")



This is one of the very few songs I like by this band...but it's a really good song and pretty video.

F.I.R. - Yue Ya Wan (月牙灣) ("Moon Crescent Bay")

The sand of the heavens of Dun Huang
Carries with them our memories
I look back midway
And the Qin passage is boundless and winding

I dreamt that I've passed through the Western Regions
Embodying many rugged hills of Shandong
Love is like a traveling journal
I will seek its riddle

Look at the tears under Moon Crescent Bay
That is forgotten above the Silk Road

Whose heart is it?
That is alone and left behind
Is he still well?
How I want to love him
Those everlasting tears
Solidify just that one sentence
Perhaps they can evaporate

Whose love is it?
That is stronger than tears
Calling softly
That can let me melt
Every drop of rain water
Evolves into my wings
Running after the person that I love

(credit)


Saturday, September 05, 2009

More songs

1. 關於我們 (About Us) by 痞客四 (Picks)

關於我們 - 痞客四

2. 學會感覺 (Learn to Feel) by Bibi Zhou


Xue Hui Gan Jue (Learn To Feel) - Bibi Zhou

3.
ここにいるよ (I'm Right Here) by Soulja feat. Aoyama Thelma. Old classic jpop


Thursday, August 13, 2009

Random videos

Just some random music videos of artists and songs that I've been listening to lately. Not necessarily reflecting on how I'm feeling or anything, just some stuff to share and for people to enjoy.

1. Da Mouth 大嘴巴 - King and Queen 國王皇后 ("Da" means Big, so their name is "Big Mouth"). Diverse group, and Harry the half-korean half-Chinese guy in the group has finally convinced me that yes, Korean boys can be CUTE.



2. 唐禹哲 - 愛我 (Danson Tang - "Ai Wo"). "Ai wo" means "Love Me". I'm not crazy about the video, but I love love this song, mostly because I love Danson's voice. It helps a lot that Danson is attractive.



3. "Utakata" by Amano Tsukiko.


4. Cover of "If I Ain't Got You" by Alicia Keys by Korean singer (who also sings Jpop) Younha


5. "Dai Wo Zou" ("Take Me Away") by Rainie Yang. Haha sorry, the video doesn't start until about 0:33 in


Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Me Muero by Utada



Everyday my life's in shambles
Since you took your love away.
I got nothing left to gamble
I've thrown it all away

Now and then I'm suicidal
Flirting with a new temptation
Happiness inside a bottle
Is what I need today

Oh my lover's gone away, gone to Istanbul
Light as a feather
I lie in my bed and flip through TV channels
Eating Godiva
I'm smoking my days away reading old E-mails
In my old pajamas
What a day, me muero, muero, muero

Loneliness makes it's arrival
The passion starts to settle in
Should I go Winona Rider
And do some crazy things

Now and then I'm suicidal
Flirting with a new temptation
Overdose overreaction
Call it what you may

Oh my lover's gone away, gone to Istanbul
Light as a feather
I lie in my bed and flip through TV channels
Eating Godiva
I'm smoking my days away reading old E-mails
In my old pajamas
What a day, me muero, muero, muero

*Note: "Me muero" roughly translates as "I die" in Spanish



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