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Monday, December 27, 2010

Wish list for 2011

Normally we try to do it before Christmas, but we'll just make it for New Year's. Not resolutions, just wishes.

First, the wish list from last year: let's see which wishes came true!

1. To always remember to put God first in my life
2. Patience
3. To get into grad school for advising/counseling, wherever that may be, and LOVE IT......or, if that is not the path that God wants to put me on, to give me understanding and guidance as I follow the path that He has for me (Um...only part of this is true. I got in to graduate school, but it was the WRONG major and therefore I DO NOT love it).
4. To not get discouraged and give up (or want to give up) so easily
5. To not let fear prevent me from doing things
6. To maintain a healthy weight and lifestyle (Healthy yes, but not quite where I want to be yet)
7. More self confidence and better self-esteem
8. To see old friends more often and to make new friends and cultivate meaningful, Godly relationships (a work in progress, especially the latter part)
9. For Mom's walking and cognition to get better (Praise GOD!!)
10. For Dad to be able to handle the stress of work and taking care of the family...and to learn to eat better (he loves sweets and steak and junk food)
11. To not ever have to worry about finances
12. A (paid) part-time or full-time job that I enjoy (or at least don't dread) in the near future so that I can have some income and more experience before grad school (if I get into grad school), and a GREAT and satisfying job once I graduate from school (or if I don't get in, how about a great and satisfying job now?)
13. To see Dir en grey in concert again!
14. For Pat to pass her teaching certification and become an awesome teacher!
15. For Karen to find a great job that she loves, wherever that may be
16. For Ms. Frog Queen, Chu-y, Sophia, Jen, Jeanne, Nicole, and everyone else in med school to do well
17. For Elise to get into a great medical school
18. For Ina to have a spectacular wedding!
19. For everyone to have a happy, healthy year in 2009~ (yes, that just about covers everything, right?)
20. To be able to visit Shirley in NY; Jac in El Paso; Pat in LA; Jess in Pittsburg; Maria, Melly, Jessica B., Lemon, and Frog Queen in Houston; and of course, everyone still in Dallas
21. To honor my commitments to respect and purity of heart, mind, and body
22. To be less judgmental
23. For that person's well-being
24. For more laughter and spiritual growth with my new small group in Austin, as well as my old Bible study from Dallas (love you girls!)
25. To be a good example to others in every way that I possibly can
26. To continue to see Liz often, even after Tong graduates and moves back to Dallas
27. To improve my Chinese
28. To remember and improve my Japanese...because I've forgotten most of it
29. To learn Korean...mostly because I want to boast that I know 4 languages...cuz I don't count my Spanish. Actually my Japanese is so bad now, I shouldn't count that anymore either...
30. To handle stress in a healthy manner
31. Patience with my grandmother...because I usually get annoyed and ignore her -_-
32. Forgiveness for my cousin and aunt. I'm still angry with them, so they should be GLAD they live far away from me.
33. For Quinn to find a job in Austin so that Erica won't have to move!
34. Anthropologie gift card
35. Target gift card
36. A fun and safe New Year's since Shirley will be home YAY
37. To keep in touch with friends (always a work in progress...)
38. To continue to be happy being single because with loneliness comes sadness as well as a temptation to compromise on things that should never be comprised.
39. No car accidents for me or my family and friends!!
40. To go to SXSW again, assuming they have good artists that I recognize (or to find new wonderful artists that I'm not familiar with yet)
41. For Cressy to get that cat she's always wanted
42. To get back in touch/stay in touch with some of my IES Tokyo friends
43. Nice hair all the time
44. Nice skin - no more acne, no wrinkles or large pores. Good skin is the key to (physical) beauty
45. To finally get to see Mimi, Victor and the rest of Team Awesome soon
46. To get that photoshoot with Karen and Kat that Hubert promised us but we never did
47. To start playing piano again
48. A better, stronger singing voice (cuz it gets hoarse immediately since I've never had formal training)
49. To learn guitar because I too want to be cool
50. To marry Kaoru of Dir en grey.....my wish every year since I was 14-years-old. Had to throw something fangirly and childish in there, right?
51. For Fei Fei, my lovable, fat, and ungrateful cat, to continue to have a happy and healthy life with Erica and Quinn (or eventually with me again)
52. For Noel and C&G's business to pick up
53. FOR THE ECONOMY TO IMPROVE AND FOR MORE JOBS TO BE CREATED
54. World peace!
55. To visit Greece, Spain, Singapore, Hong Kong, and Seoul
56. To go back and visit Japan and Taiwan (and not get chased out of Taiwanese clothing stores for being too chubby this time...)
57. To go back to visit London, Paris, and Rome again
58. A clean, organized house (in my dreams right?)
59. GOOD HEALTH for my family, my friends, and myself always
60. For my Uncle CT and my Aunt Helen
61. For nephews Eitan and Eland to grow up to be strong, healthy, and courteous young men
62. For Emy and all that she is going through right now (though I don't know the details)
63. For Brian to get into a great college and to have fun (and not go crazy)
64. To always keep sight of the big picture and keep things in perspective
65. A refill of Majolica Majorca mascara. It sucks that Japan has such good makeup but it's SO EXPENSIVE
66. To have better endurance when I run (it's not even a "run", it's jogging), because I love running/walking in my neighborhood!
67. To own a cute little house or condo when I'm older, done with school and have a steady income
68. To eventually have a Godly, patient husband (I DEFINITELY don't want one anytime soon!), or to enjoy being single if that is what I'm called to be
69. To be less awkward. This is kind of related to #5 (to not let fear prevent me from doing things)
70. To stop global warming......singlehandedly! Just kidding (about the singlehandedly part I mean)
71. A flat tummy/nice abs and thinner, more toned arms
72. A better sense of direction or a GPS because I have a crippling fear of getting lost! ><''
73. To learn how to parallel park
74. No parking tickets if I end up going to UT for school! Yikes!
75. Mars (Zhan Shen tv series) poster
76. To be able to compose a song
77. To draw and sketch as well as I used to in high school
78. To learn how to tie an obi so that I can wear the real kimono I have (not the fake one from China that has a velcro obi)
79. A pretty hanfu like the ones Cressy and Cin have
80. To never experience betrayal or backstabbing
81. A second chance and/or a little extra help for those in need - the poor, the hungry, the sick
82. To always be grateful
83. To not have the urge to spend money that I don't have or shouldn't be spending
84. To not sweat the little things
85. A new laptop
86. To volunteer more...what usually stops me is not laziness but for some reason, fear. Fear of what I don't really know, just fear of the unknown I think? I have an unnatural fear of a lot of things.
87. To eat whatever I want, however much I want and not gain weight! (I'm hungry right now)
89. For Rocky and Nicolo to get into Architecture school
90. A Girls' Night with Elise and Jihye (Twice, once in August and then again recently in December)
91. To be better at accounting and managing finances
92. Wisdom in all things
93. To not be lazy and vacuum/clean my room more often
94. More of that raspberry viniagrette drink stuff that I bought from H-Mart
95. A better mattress
96. To be more of a morning person...because my body and mind don't wake up until 10 am or later (now I exercise in the morning)
97. Endless supply of red pepper hummus...yum.
98. For my eyes not to get red so easily. It's my contacts I swear!
99. Perfect vision
100. To always have good hearing...seeing Dad makes me appreciate the fact that I can enjoy music.

 

Wish list for 2011:

1. Patience and calmness in uncertainty

2. To not sweat the little things and stress myself sick so much

3. To keep in touch with friends

4. To get into UT's HEA program and to LOVE EVERY MOMENT OF IT

5. Health and happiness for my family and friends

6. A better attitude towards my grandmother

7. To not let my ugly side show so often

8. To grow and deepen the friendships I have in Austin...because there aren't many and/or they're not very deep

9. To be a positive example and influence in the lives of others

10. Financial security

11. To be able to maintain my commitment to a healthy lifestyle (exercise, diet, weight, etc.)

12. To stop obsessing over things I cannot change or control

13. To not let fear overpower me

14. Confidence in myself and in God

15. GAP giftcard (had to sneak in something material eventually)

16. To be able to buy all my groceries from Central Market or Whole Foods (or should I say, to be rich enough to be able to do so)

17. To be a better steward of my finances

18. To be more grateful

19. Korean food everyday

20. Sashimi everyday (or should I say, to be rich enough to be able to have this)

21. To be a better runner - better endurance and NO MORE JOINT PAIN

22. Flat abs and toned arms (yeah, probably will never happen ever)

23. To see Frog Queen again

24. For Quinn to get a job in Austin so Erica won't have to move away

25. To be less self-absorbed

26. A more loving heart

27. To be more mindful of others

28. To have more self-discipline

29. To be more easy going/laid back

30. To smile more

31. More energy

32. To be able to stay up later (because really, I don't even work but I get sleepy at 10)

33. To start singing again

34. To start sketching again

35. Trip to (South) Korea, Hong Kong, Singapore, Japan, and Taiwan

36. Trip to Europe (various places)

37. Hair with more volume at the roots (I always have to use tons of product b/c my hair is so heavy at the roots and gets really flat)

38. Dick's Sporting Goods or Academy giftcard (I want more Under Armour running tights)

39. For Mom to exercise more

40. For Dad to stop eating so many sweets and buying more food (and not the right kinds I mean) than we need b/c it's unhealthy and wasteful

41. To be more optimistic

42. For Rocky to get into Architecture school

43. For Karen to either like her job more or to find a place that is a better fit for her

44. For Liz to still visit Austin often

45. To learn how to parallel park

46. For Elise to get into medical school

47. To honor my commitment at my Baptism to serving God, His people, and the church

48. To stop having to take artificial hormones b/c it's expensive and unnatural

49. For 24hour Fitness to change the schedule back so that I can go to Liz's yoga class, or to find an instructor who is just as good at a time/location that is convenient for me

50. A clean house

 

That's all I got to for now..... it's not 100, but good enough.


Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Trying to be positive for once...it's really difficult though.

"If you cannot be teachable, having talent won't help you.

If you cannot be flexible, having a goal won't help you.

If you cannot be grateful, having abundance won't help you.

If you cannot be mentorable, having a future won't help you.

If you cannot be durable, having a plan won't help you.

If you cannot be reachable, having a success won't help you." - John C. Maxwell Talent Is Never Enough (2007).

 


Saturday, September 25, 2010

GUH

I'm turning into my dad (who I really don't get along with)- I FLIP out when things don't go my way, and take it out on everyone.

So yeah by the way...is graduate school supposed to make you cry every week?


Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Unnerving darkness

in the darkness, in the stretch of highway between the small cities, about 15 minutes before i'm blinded by the bright lights welcoming me back into the city, my eyes began to water. is this really what God wants? how can i be so sure at one moment, and then be so unnerved the next?


Saturday, April 10, 2010

Random music thoughts

I've always loved rock and I started liking metal more after Dir en grey's shift to metal. For a while I didn't listen to much rock or metal at all, and mostly listened to cheesy Asian pop songs (which I still love). I've been going through Kaoru of Dir en grey's guitar roots albums list...and since my attention span is short, it is going to take me a lifetime. It's only 40 albums, but I like to listen to lots of cheesy Asian pop songs too, instead of listening to rock or metal or punk, etc. all the time.....mostly because I can only sing to cheesy pop songs. Plus I've also been distracting myself with a lot of albums not on the list.

Not all of these are metal. [EDIT: I rearranged these in alphabetical order by artist just for my own benefit, for when I add more thoughts later as I go through more albums]:

Al Di Meola's "Elegant Gypsy" album (1977): No vocals. Great jazz fusion, very impressive. I can see why Kaoru is a fan. I really like "Mediterranean Sundance", but I've always liked that style of Spanish acoustic guitar.

Bauhaus' "Mask" album (1981): More British punk, but I guess it's considered Glam/goth/punk. So most great rock musicians come from Britain huh? Not nothing we didn't already know. . Fav song right now is probably "Kick in the Eye". "Passion of Lovers" makes me chuckle because I like the way he says "Lah-vahs".

Black Light Burn's "Cruel Melody" album (2007)
: I lost a little bit of respect for Kaoru for liking this album, but in his defense, he doesn't understand English. The music is decent, but the lyrics are just awful. The only song I can get through without laughing is "Mesopotamia".

Black Sabbath's "Paranoid" album (1970): A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. Need a say more? Not on Kaoru's list, but boy am I glad I decided randomly to listen to this one. Erica liked it too. I don't have a favorite song, as they're all good, but probably the title track "Paranoid" or the ever-popular "Iron Man". My cousin laughed when I said I was listening to them lately; I'm not too sure why.

Daisy Chainsaw's "Eleventeen" album (1992): The vocalist's voice makes me want to poke my eardrums out. I definitely see how they influenced Hide-san (from X-Japan); it's that weird, messy, noisy, nasal-y style that Hide often used too. I do like some of the songs though, like "I Feel Insane" and "I Hope All Your Dreams Come True."

Ministry's "Psalm 69" album (1992): Industrial+metal. Not bad, but it's not really something I'd listen to with my undivided attention, you know? More like something I'd burn to put in my car. I'm not too much into industrial music; I think NIN's take on industrial has a broader appeal, probably because NIN's music (well, "The Downward Spiral" album anyways) is much more personal, uncomfortably so in fact.

Muse's "Origin of Symmetry" (2001): Like Tool, I had actually been acquainted with Muse for a long time and just didn't know it because the alternative stations play them quite a bit. Plus, apparently everyone listens to Muse and I just didn't know. Brits prove they make the best rock once again, huh? My friend actually recommended them to me, so I d/led this album and then realized that I had heard them before, and that it was also on Kaoru's list. Favorite song thus far is "Space Dementia", also used in a commercial for a Dior perfume, directed by Wong Kar Wai (thanks for the info Wikipedia).

Nine Inch Nails "The Downward Spiral" (1994): I had listened this album a while ago, and I still have yet to really sit through it all. It's just so dark and has reminded me of all the places that my mind has been and never wants to visit again, and that's why this album is so brilliant but also so...dangerous? Like, it's like standing at the edge of an abyss, with each moment pulling you further towards the center. How did Trent Reznor manage to make this album and not actually commit suicide? My favorite song is still "Closer", the most well-known track.

Pink Floyd's "Dark Side of the Moon" (1973): Shame on me, waiting 23 (almost 24...yikes) years of my life to finally get around to listening to this album. It's a classic, so I don't need to say much. Super trippy.

The Damned's "Damned Damned Damned" (1977)
: I have discovered that I'm not crazy about punk, but it's growing on me. One thing that does make me smile is that every time I listen to a British punk song, I think of the NANA manga. I'm such a dork. Fav song thus far? "1 of the 2" and "I Feel Alright" are pretty good

Tool's "AEnima" album (1996): Apparently 101 X has been playing Tool and A Perfect Circle for many many years and so I had been quite well acquainted with both bands for a long time and just didn't know it. Kaoru listed this album, which I haven't really sat through with my undivided attention yet, but I have gone through their "Lateralus" album and it's amazing. Obviously. Squeezing cats. ^^;

"Underworld Soundtrack": I haven't seen the movie, but since the album is on the list, I d/led it. I like the first 3 tracks the most: "Awakening" by The Damning Well; "Rev 22:20" by Puscifer, which is another side project band by Tool's Maynard James Keenan; and "Throwing Punches" by Page Hamilton".

Velvet Revolver's "Contraband" album (2004): Fine to listen to when jogging; little to no substance otherwise, really. "Slither" is still a great song though. Also not on Kaoru's list.

40 albums, plus a limited attention span? I'll never finish! List and translated comments here.



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